Well this past year sure has been a rollercoaster and the hardest of my life but it has taught me A LOT! They say you really learn most about yourself when faced with difficult situations and in my case this is definitely true. I have learnt that I am a lot stronger than I thought I was. I used to think I needed someone to be strong for me but when that person who you thought was your strength is taken away you are forced to be strong on your own and this can be a good thing. I have showed other people and most importantly myself just how much strength I do have and have used this to grow and develop and I have realised that it is ok to be on your own, and is very therapeutic for the soul. I used to fear it but now I embrace it. Time to myself, doing things I love, spending time with the most amazing people, discovering more about myself, exploring new hobbies and most importantly looking after number 1- ME!
When I have been going through tough times my dear, dear friends have often said to me “Courtney, you are a lot stronger than you think” and they may have just been right. The below quote really sums it up for me.
A few things that have happened this past year have really opened by eyes to two things that I always knew before but are much more clear now.
1: Nobody else is going to going to look after you as well as YOU! It is up to you to do this and to take your life in the direction you want! You can not rely on anyone else to create your happiness, this lies with you and you should never put all your eggs in one basket because as secure as you think your life is things can change in an instant and you are never exempt from this. I care for everyone around me so deeply and would do anything for the people I love but I have just learnt to look after my heart first and only have people in my life who bring positive energy and enrich my life.
2: Friends are ALWAYS, ALWAYS so important no matter what, and I am so very thankful that through many years I have always remembered this and held on to my friends. Not only because they are the most beautiful, kind hearted, fun, amazing, generous, honest, down to earth, loving people but because NOTHING get’s you through a hard time like the strength of your friends and family. I honestly could not tell you where I would be today if it wasn’t for these incredible people in my life!!! They have seen me through thick and thin and been there for me on my worst and best days. Every single one of them is truly wonderful in their own way and has given me such wisdom, strength and love which has truly humbled me. I am beyond lucky to have such amazing friends and I am so blessed and thank god everyday for bringing such joys in to my life. Even the small things they have done for me have made a difference, they have taught me to smile again and appreciate the wonderful things I do have in life. I am eternally grateful.
The below quote is so beautiful but for me, I am lucky enough that I have ALWAYS been able to see my “stars” (friends) because they are never far from me and always make their presence known.
Marilyn Monroe sums my thoughts up perfectly below <3
I honestly believe that everything DOES happen for a reason, even if you may not be able to see those reasons at the time, they will become clear at some stage. Although its so hard and at times you may feel like you are at rock bottom, you can only go up from there and good things, come to good people. I honestly believe in karma, what goes around, comes around. So no matter what, or no matter how badly people treat you, if you hold your head high and keep plodding along while remaining a good person and not stooping to their level, you will be rewarded one day.
This post is a dedication the the BEST friends a girl could ever ask for, I LOVE you with all my heart and just hope I can be as wonderful to you all, as you have been to me!
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being in my life!!